[She says this quietly because the memory is immediately tainted with the knowledge that Maddy's gone and because if BOB killed her then Laura figures it has to be for that very reason, because they look so much alike. But unlike someone else Albert knows she's not going to blame herself for such a thing - it just makes her feel even more sick when she thinks about BOB. It's a mix of coiling hatred, shame and fear. Amplified because of Maddy and Ronette.]
[She wishes so much nothing of this had ever happened to her. She won't take the blame, none of BOB's crap is her fault (even if a lot of other things are), but she understands that she's still the center. And she hates it. She hates it so much.]
[Some of that is bound to be showing in her face, the fist she's making against her thigh.]
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[She says this quietly because the memory is immediately tainted with the knowledge that Maddy's gone and because if BOB killed her then Laura figures it has to be for that very reason, because they look so much alike. But unlike someone else Albert knows she's not going to blame herself for such a thing - it just makes her feel even more sick when she thinks about BOB. It's a mix of coiling hatred, shame and fear. Amplified because of Maddy and Ronette.]
[She wishes so much nothing of this had ever happened to her. She won't take the blame, none of BOB's crap is her fault (even if a lot of other things are), but she understands that she's still the center. And she hates it. She hates it so much.]
[Some of that is bound to be showing in her face, the fist she's making against her thigh.]